Opportunity in a Strange Light
So, it turns out that I won't be singing in the Christmas services tomorrow and Wednesday. As is typical of newbies to the choir, you are a member for a full two months before you're cleared to sing. Just so happens that my timing of joining coincides with the big Christmas Gala.
On one hand, it's disappointing because I spent A LOT of time learning 14 new songs and lyrics and didn't find out until 5 days before the performance that I wouldn't be participating.
On the other hand, I'm such an egomaniac that I made a HUGE deal of it at work and all of my co-workers are planning to attend on one of the two days. I'm almost positive that I wouldn't have made such a big deal of it if I had known that I wouldn't be signing. So, some of my colleagues that likely won't step into a church this whole season will be coming to this service.
No one has asked directly about it in recent days, but I know it's going to come up soon. I still want them all to come, but I'm afraid they won't if they know I'm not going to be up on the stage. For now, I'm playing sneaky-sneaky. For now. I won't lie if they ask directly, but as long as they don't...